All that I am..and am not.

First off, I had a stellar week, down 4 pounds. Really proud of the way I worked for this, I know I deserve this loss.

I need to talk about me for a few minutes, I need to write down my good points, I will not focus on bad things. I need to brag about myself. Here goes....

I'm an adult, but I am never growing up. Don't get me wrong, I am a man, yes. I grew up quick as a child, having a very serious illness that could have taken me at 14. It didn't, I took IT!

I talk about age 14 a lot and I get a little emotional when I do. It was THE pivitol point of my life. No year had a greater efect on me than 1991, the exception being 2005 when Michaela was brought into my life. However, 1991 was cruel, it was devestating, and it was unkind, but it gave me lots of time to think and grow prematurly as shape me as the adult I am today. At 14, I didn't know who I wanted to be, but I knew who I didn't want to be. This was my thought process at 14 from what I remember.

1. I didn't want to be an abuser of people, alcohol or drugs, I have seen what it did to members of my family, and how much it effects others. I am proud to say I am not either of those things.
2. I didn't want to be a bully, I have seen the suicides, I have seen how worthless people feel when others try to kill them with words. I am proud to say I never was a bully.
3. I didn't want to be a taker, someone who knowingly took advantage of others for my personal gain. I am proud to say I am not a taker.

I am not any one of those things above. I am proud of that. I think of myself as a gentle and kind person, who likes helping others, I do it because I want to do it, nothing more.

I never want to grow up, and I never want to grow old, mentally. I like to laugh, and I like to be around the ones I love. Ask anyone who knows me, they will tell you that I will fight, and viciously protect the people in my pack. They are more important to me than I am to myself, and I have always felt this way for as long as I can remember.

So, I have turned out pretty good I thnk overall. Ahhhhhh, but I didn't mention my faults, and I can tell you they are longer than this list, but I figure all the thiks that I am good, should cancel out most of my shortcomings. I hope.

CHD - Nfldman